Salsa

Dance Festival

Cuban Salsa.

Any takers?

Nonchalent

Smile

and keep that body moving.

Dance all that bad away. :)

亲爱的祖国

我很爱你。

然而，

也极度想远离你。

你的一些措举，

让原本就已经喘不过气的人，

感觉更加难以呼吸。

你只想不断往前进，

却完全忽略了那些还在挣扎生存的子民。

还是你根本，

就想将他们淘汰出外？

亲爱的祖国，

我们应该都很爱你。

然而是否就像他们所说的，

if you care too much,

first it will break your spirits,

then it will break your heart.

Rainbow beneath

I have to stop this negativity
that is brewing inside of me.

It makes me feel weaker
than I already am.

People continue to draw strength from me,
when strength is what I no longer can offer.

And it sadden me to see
despair in silent agony.

I frantically searched for solutions,
where none is in existence.

There is no solution.

For matters that cannot be taken
into our own hands,
I must remember to be patient.

I forgot.

Time is needed
for the truth and answer to surface.

It is a vicious cycle,
something I need to distance from.

For only distance can cleanse my vision.

I need a clear vision,
to stay strong in faith and hope.

Faith,
that everything will turn out alright.

Hope,
that what ridiculously went down,
will one day come up again.

take away

dear God

if you cannot make him go away

please be with her and guide her way

she needs comfort and the knowledge that she will be alright

i do not possess the strength, even though i've tried

it has affected me too much

i had had enough

dear God

please be with her

你，去。

做恶梦。

梦醒时，

枕头是湿的。

你若知道，

我所做的噩梦，

你是否会因为自己所造成梦魇，

而感到惭愧、内疚、心虚、伤痛？

我憎恨你，

让我背负了如此沉重的一切，

只因为你个人自以为是的暧昧利益关系。

你让我非常想远离这里，

远离你和这几乎快要疯狂的城市。

然而，

我必须沉住。

我会在受不了时，

深深吸一口气。

然后想像你是肺里的那股废气，

大力将它吐得远远的。

我会开始练习，

那不带感情和言语的眼神，

让它来敷衍你一切的虚假关问。

我会告诉自己，

我是我，你是你。

有一天，当一切稳定，

我会飞离。

我的生活，

基本上已经不牵涉你。

我要坚强，

稳健地走出你的框框。

有一天，

我的天空，

不会再因你而影响情绪。

我是我，你是你。

And if you want to know,

I sometimes pray that you will go away.

To guilt

CS called at 5.25am as he always does to make sure I get out of bed.

I was awake. I never slept. My nose was blocked, I kept sneezing. I couldn't get to sleep at all.

CS was concerned. He told me to rest for the day, as he always did.

I wouldn't.

My girls were having their Prelims Oral Examination that day. And there is already a shortage of teachers available as examiners. I cannot be absent.

CS did not insist. Even though I kept murmuring that I feel really unwell.

He knew I was in a dilemma. He knew if I decided on taking an MC, I would go through the entire episode of guilt trip.

"Let a coin decide for you." He said. Then he tossed a coin on my behalf, while I was on the other line waiting.

"Head to go, tail to rest." I murmured.

"If I can have my way, I'd put tail on both sides." He said, as he tossed the coin.

In the end, it was tail.

I gladly accepted the decision made for me, went back to bed and see the doctor later in the morning.

Doctor announced me feverish, with flu virus.

Still, I went through that guilt trip, when I heard that 3 were absent on that fateful day, me included.

Well, perhaps I shouldn't.

I rarely take MC, but this year the body immunity system really went chaotic, for whatever reason.

I wouldn't want it, if I can help it.

And if not for CS, I think I would have pushed myself through the full long day, spread the flu virus everywhere I sneeze, and get very sick by the end of the week.

Which is more responsible? I wonder.

I think the society and myself are confused.

天涯海角

生命很脆弱。

总在不经意时，

被生活踹一脚。

然后癌症，然后肿瘤，

然后神离，接着分手。

这一连串，

都那么不可思议。

然而你我，

也是不可思议。

我感激有你，

让突发的混乱，

失去了重心和意义。

然而我的任性，

因你温柔允许，

似乎变本加厉。

最近看到的一些，

让我觉得不想沦落如此脾气，

尽管我还不至于。

我在乎你，

然而我的在乎不该成为，

一股莫名的阻力。

我不要在你生命，

扮演这样的角色，

成为这样的一股势力。

我是小鸟依人。

不依人时，

我喜欢飞翔。

所以，

请你不要被我绊脚。

带着我和爱，

一起飞高。

负载

对你的情绪
变得复杂

有时
甚至无法让自己
正眼看着你

某种程度上
仍深爱着你

有时我却怀疑
你是否忘记了
我们的关系

有时
我会不自觉
提起了过往的你

那是一个
多么爱着我们的你

然而那或许
也只不过是一个幻影

你让我
对很多事情
失去了信心

原来世上隐藏着许多
自以为坚强的泡泡

时间久了
泡泡破了
人就失措了

既然泡泡不坚强
人就一定要坚强

至少
我不可以不坚强

你看到吗
你所带来的痛楚
你所自找的伤害

然而就是因为深爱
才会有痛楚
才会去伤害

我希望有一天
你把眼睛睁开
试着去明白

三年级造句

闷闷不乐：

小山看起来闷闷不乐，因为他的玩具坏了。