为了远途

这个星期

我想好好休息

好好照顾自己

方向

最近工作上发生了一些事，

让人感到有些灰心，

增加了本来就存在的疲惫感。

其实我并不责怪任何人，

每个人都有自己的立场。

社会的变样，

或许造就了人格的影响。

也许三年是一个期限，

预言着瓶颈的出现。

每每想着另外可能的一端，

却感觉不太有时间力量，

去寻觅听说的那一方。

我想需要先休息一段，

然后正式查证寻找前往的方向。

My mother

I love my mother.

I can imagine the pains she went through,

to bring us to this world.

I will always remember,

the hardships she went through,

to make my studying life better.

Have a reflectional birthday Father,

I hope you love my mother too.

倦意

感觉虚脱

另加一股厌倦

开始思考着其他的出路

但愿一双翅膀飞翔远离

然而也只不过 二月 而已

Self

I feel lousy about myself,

whatever has happened yesterday.

Everything went wrong,

the payment, my health, my mental turmoil.

I do not like it when I am not able,

to be more assertive to make good decisions,

and take good care of myself.

I do not like it when I softened,

at the whims of others,

and forget about myself.

CS told me that,

I have to make decisions and stay with it,

instead of going to and fro endlessly.

Yes, I should.

The mind is overestimating,

the endurance level of the body.

The body is beginning to feel the drain.

I want to take good care of my body,

for what's once gone, will forever be gone.

I want to be stronger,

mentally and physically.

I want to make decisions,

and go ahead with it.

I want to not feel bad,

about thinking of myself before others,

for it will not directly affect those others anyway.

You should take good care of yourself,

you know?

If you don't look after yourself,

no one else is able to do that for you.

Be good to yourself.

不离不弃

给你。

最终

我祈祷，

你的努力不会触礁，

你的一切会越来越好。

犹如雨后的彩虹，

在风雨中努力挣扎后，

悬挂空中。

然后一起踏上彩虹，

寻觅虹彩另一端，

美丽的梦。

骤然明白

最近一直在想，

真得很可能会发生的未来。

然后感到有些舍不得，

过了将近二十八年的现在。

不足

忽然觉得很累

阶段

我很幸运，我有你。

尽管最近，

常感到莫名怀疑恐惧。

从不觉得自己，

可能会有天步入自己的婚礼，

所以也就不曾有过如此思绪。

我仿佛害怕失去自己，

所以时不时抗拒逃避。

然而我有你。

你说要一起面对问题，

你说不要畏惧。

于是我学习，

放下刺猬的皮，继续走下去。

因为有你，

即使对未知充满恐惧，

我知道这会是段幸福之旅。