Maternity Leave

Today is the officially first day of my maternity leave,

well if we discount Saturday and Sunday.

I am so glad to be able to stay at home rest

and not have to pull myself and baby out of bed

in the wee hours of 5-ish am to go to work.

As my tummy gets bigger,

it gets easier to feel breathless, panting and tired,

even though I am not walking much.

Sometimes this physical weariness

comes with the intense pressure on my bladder,

and it really feels bad.

As usual,

last night I didn't get to sleep much.

Woke up respectively

at 2am, 4am, 5.30am (due to my stupid hp), 7am (due to hubby's alarm)

and finally doze back to sleep better for a good 2 hours

before I wake up at around 10am.

Sleeping patterns like that are crazy,

I am surprised by my ability to cope.

What comforts me

is my little darling happily kicking away whenever it frustrates me,

and I think to myself,

it doesn't matter as long as he is safe and sound in me.

Sometimes the discomfort and unsettled feelings

makes me think of my mother.

You will not really know how much your mother has to go through,

until you go through it yourself.

I love my mother a lot before I got pregnant.

I love her more than ever now.