Unload

It was a very horrible experience.

I was feeling very weak & feverish.

The lack of voice did not help.

And I was super pissed off.

Then I just released my grip.

It helped.

Then it was over.

Now I am still feeling weak,

and the throat is still hurting.

I have slept for like almost 12 hours,

and I feel like I should be sleeping forever.

I never ever wanted to do this again.

I feel sad every time,

I think about how I was spending,

more than 12 hours a day on this,

stupid thingy to boost someone else's face & ego.

And I was not doing my job,

the job my title requires of me.

My REAL job.

Someone from the top,

should seriously look into this.

You are chasing away a lot of,

very good people who are good at their job.

Do not corporatise this job.

Yes, we can multi-task,

but please, take a real hard look,

at the nature of our job.

One person can only have 24-hr.

If we spend 12-hr doing such shitty stuff,

then tell me, where on earth do we find time,

for our REAL job?

Stop talking about big ideas, pedagogies and methodologies,

when everything is actually just for show.

Give us time to do it.

Eating into our rest time / lunch break,

will only make us do it,

for you to see.

You should see,

so many of us are really keen to do well,

at our REAL job.

We hope to spend more time,

thinking for the big bunch of little people,

we really care for.

Give us time to do our job well.

Yes, I am glad it is over.

But at the back of my mind,

I feel there will be another deja vu.

I am happy for A,

it was her last day yesterday.

AG & Zee shares similar sentiments.

And I'm sure it's not just us.

I hope someone will really do something about it.

Look at the developed countries,

look at their systems.

I seriously do not think,

we are going towards the right way.

When you demand everything,

you will have a bit of everything,

and ending up,

with nothing at all.

Dear God

I pray for a smooth week.

For guidance & patience,

when the unexpected comes.

For peace within,

when chaos without.

For those who bo-chap,

to start doing what they are supposed to do,

to play their part for I am not Superwoman.

Dear God,

please be with me,

for the rest of the week.

Severely burnt

Tired

when you woke up in the morning

able to feel neither soul nor energy

is an understatement.

位置

其实我真得很怕

霎那间划过

那个想法

谈话

之后，

我更确定，

这条路该怎么走。

我需要慢慢衡量，

渐渐改变她们对我的想法和期望。

是的，

我知道我可以。

但是我不要。

我极不愿意，

如她们那样为工作奉献生命。

这只是工作。

这只是工作。

工作不应该让我如此压迫。

本末倒置的制度，

和一切疯狂的安排，

让我感到窒息。

月底这件事完毕后，

我要改变态度。

我不应该让工作，

侵犯我的休息和生活，

更何况忙疯的，更本就无关于正业。

我觉得，

我有必要保持距离，

保护自己。

这样下去，

很快我会垮去。

Burnt

I really feel very very tired.

I hope that this month quickly pass,

that stupid event done & over with.

It will be a good year,

if I ever get through this horrendous month.

*pray*

认真

对于感情，

我从未曾经历过这样阶段。

然而这其实，

未尝不是一件好事。

若恋爱让人弱视，

那么这一段段小插曲，

让彼此更加了解认识。

听清楚了你我的心思，

然后大声告诉他人，

蜜月期在经历曲折后，

仍属于我们。

Undo-ing

It has happened before.

Whenever things seemed to be settled & planned for,

some Big news will come along,

and disrupt the entire event you planned hard for.

It has happened before.

But it seems more unbearable,

with Everything coming together.

Everything.

It sort of drained my tolerance,

for every single disruption.

And the frustration that was built up,

landed on the One closest.

I do not like this Me.

This unkind, impatient & easily frustrated Me.

I want all these to go through,

without my bad temper.

And work will be work,

Me will be me.

Bad

It has been a very tiring week,

and it's not yet over.

I think it makes negativity spill over,

with everything flooding in together.

But I will be good,

and I will hang in there.

It will pass,

and I will get things together.

我们的歌

答应 你们，

要放上来的歌曲。

这是我们的歌，

没有其他可以代替。

Cheng zhe ge sheng de chibang - YPPAE 18th

Funikuli Funikula - YPPAE 18th

YPPAE2 - Yppae 18th

少儿组

很庆幸，

生命里有你们。

那是一段，

别人即使听了，

也无法真正体会和了解的过去。

而我很感激，

你们仍在我的现在，

更确定你们会存在我的未来。

谢谢你们昨晚的出席。

我很感动，

我们差不多人到齐。:)

昨晚躲在走廊间唱着，

录下的那些歌曲，

过后才放上去。

I love you people! :)

Have a very happy new year.

Addiction

NEVER

never buy DS Lite,

for teenagers who are supposed to be

STUDYING.

By the way, that's my sister. :)

And she's playing Scissors, Paper, Stone.

更改

不是 35。

应该说是，

31、33、35。

不重要，

只是给自己的，

期限、期望、目标。

加油！^_^

我要的09

欢送 08

Now 08 - - - Then 08

一步一脚印，

慢慢填满 09。

Now 09 - - - WIP 09

^_^ 加油！