Thursday, November 14, 2013

词穷

很长一段日子,很想写些什么,
但因为发生的太多,想写的太多,
真的不知从何写起。

有时下定决心,
上了网准备写个想法,
零零落落的字
打了又删,删了又打,
最后不了了之。

写作便是如此,
与生活一般。

久久繁琐地过着日子,
久久没有好好地过生活,
久而久之真的会忘了如何过。

其实我过得很好,
只是很累。

但当母亲老婆之余,
还想继续做蓝月。

加油哦,蓝月!


Saturday, November 09, 2013

Note to Self


  • Don't over-worry unnecessarily. 
Worrying does not help in the situation. It only exaggerates the worst that can happen and makes me feel like shit.


  • Breathe in, breathe out.
I really need more of this especially after being a mother. Situation changes in split seconds. As I type, my son could be fighting against some nameless gastronitis virus and started a sudden mild fever. *touch-wood*! My heart almost stop so many times through this one year.


  • Let go
I need to believe that other than me, someone else can take good care of him as well. I need to trust the alternative care-giver. I need to trust that my son is more adaptable and stronger than I choose to believe.



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I never see myself as carefree till I become a Mother. I was carefree. But I choose to worry. 

Now a Mother, I see the real worries. Worries that are not just about yourself, but another human being, whose life is dependant on your every decision, right or wrong. 

I feel so tired right. Yet, it has become clearer and clearer that it's not my baby who can't live without me, but I him.

I love my baby.

God bless my baby.