Tuesday, May 25, 2010

自言

有时
我看不见未来
是什么样子

沮丧

但沮丧没有用
所以我必须记得

以前我也不曾预见
现在会这个样子

我很怀念
以前美好的
完整无缺的

盈眶

但盈眶没有用
所以我只能继续

努力着寻找着
不放弃这个残缺


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Disappointments

What good is a relationship
if it cannot be based on trust?

Any relationship at all.

I feel really very tired and sick.

My stomach is churning again.

Maybe I will throw up again tonight.


Tuesday, May 04, 2010

Verdict

I cannot say I was disappointed,
I was not expecting anything really.

At most,
I was merely planning what needs to be done,
if THAT really falls upon me.

I gave CS a long hug,
whil he read on.

Perhaps it is for the best.

To have THAT happening for the next 2 years,
and then perhaps marriage and children all at the same time,
is something that takes a lot to handle,
for the both of us.

I will still continue to path a way.

Whatever the outcome,
it will be for the better,
whether known or unknown to me.

To us.



Monday, May 03, 2010

Long weekend



Thank you for spending your free days,
running around with me,
doing my errands and fulfilling my responsibilities.

It meant a lot,
that you are always there.

And I promise to be good,
no more tantrums and unreasonable requests.

But you must promise,
never to play vanish again.