Health Log [31 Jul 2009]

Dr. H : How are you today?

Me : Not too good. I have flu and I keep coughing whenever I start to talk.

Dr. H : Do you have sore throat?

Me : Yes.

Dr. H : When did it started?

Me : Yesterday. My sore throat started. Flu started out of nowhere this morning.

Dr. H : You went to work today?

Me : Yes, I felt alright in the morning. Just sore throat. But around 8-plus, I started to sneeze non-stop... I have a confirmed case in my class...

Dr. H : You are running a fever. A slight one. Pull your hair up, let me listen to your lungs.

Dr. H : According to the Ministry, you are categorised under ILI (Influenza-like Illness), and we are advised to give all ILI patients Tamiflu. But Tamiflu does not come cheap, and not all influenza is H1N1...

Me : What do you advise, Doctor? I know I am very prone to catching flu, (Dr. H : yes..) and this does not feel different from previously...

Dr. H : Let us do this. I will give you some medicine for your fever, flu and throat, and we will monitor your progress. In any case if you develop higher fever or difficulty in breathing, come to me again. Or you can go immediately to Tan Tock Seng if I'm not available.

Me : Ok. Actually Dr. H, do you still remember the last time you diagnosed me with hyperventilation? I had a few attacks subsequently... unable to breathe properly. And once, when I was watching movie, and my heart started to beat so fast that I thought I might just stop breathing altogether.

Dr. H : Haha... must be a very exciting movie.

Me : I then to the polyclinic and was referred to a heart specialist. They did tests on me, and found nothing wrong.

Dr. H : Yes, I didn't it was anything to do with the heart.

Me : They told me that it might just be a case of acid reflux, and gave me 2 months of medicine for that.

Dr. H : Did they do a scope to prove that?

Me : No.

Dr. H : How do you feel after taking the medicine?

Me : It didn't make me feel any better. I still feel the inability to breathe properly every now and then. But I feel that when it happens, I am getting better at controlling it, and not panic.

Dr. H : (softly to himself) I didn't think it has got anything to do with acid reflux either.

Me : Then what could it be?

Dr. H : Do you still remember the pills I have given you the last time, for you to relax? Take it whenever you feel it coming. In any case, if it gets serious, go directly to A&E.

Nineteen Minutes

"When you love someone, there's a pattern to the way you come together.

You might not even realise it, but your bodies are choreographed:

A touch on the hip, a stroke of the hair.

A staccato kiss, break away, a longer one,

his hand slipping under your shirt.

It's a routine, but not in the boring sense of the word.

It's just the way you have learnt to fit,

and it's why,

when you have been with one guy for a long time,

your teeth do not scrape together when you kiss;

you do not bump noses or elbows."

--- Jodi Picoult ---

What do I see?

It came as a surprise,

that someone from the ivory tower,

you met for the first time,

saw something in you.

Something someone else has mentioned before,

but you do not quite remember,

because you do not want it to matter.

It could possibly mean more than just a compliment,

an agenda well hidden.

But the fact that it was mentioned again,

made me rethink my possible future.

Am I going to continue in this work?

Am I proceeding with,

the pursuit of higher knowledge and wisdom?

Am I going to change directions?

Or am I letting it be until one day,

one fine day when it all gets to me.

And then like all time when big decisions were made,

I shock people who thought they know me better than I do?

I love Singapore!

这是一场原本很不想去的国庆预演。

因为被点到名，
又不想被人闲言闲语，
所以出席。

然而这却是我认为，
最精彩的一场国庆庆典。

Kudos to Ivan Heng,
who conceptualise this year's parade! :)

2pm 报到，

10pm 带领小朋友回到学校，

然后苦苦等待那些姗姗来迟的父母。

他们不懂，

苦等的不只是老师，

还有那 8.45pm 就在校门外等待，

大老远从最尾的东部赶来，

却没有半句怨言的 CS。

more photos (;

Okinawa Churaumi Aquarium

当你正为自己的周遭而执著、烦恼

你不会想到

转个弯，睁开眼

这世界原来没有你想象中的小

看不起

当你的人格在大家心目中，

已经只剩下那么一点点。

你是否应该考虑，

不能再这样继续下去？

护驾

CS 和我，

常会讨论将来的孩子。

比如看到可爱的婴儿服，

我会说将来要买给 girlgirl 和弟弟，

他就说是买给 boyboy和妹妹。

我喜欢第一个孩子是女生，

因为女生总会比较乖，

能正面影响和照顾下面的弟妹。

CS 说一定先生男生，

因为他家旺男丁。

昨晚读完了 Vanishing Acts，

我跟他说，不要生女的了。

故事透露了主人翁小时候，

如何被以为可以信任的人侵犯，

顿时我心里一阵心痛。

要是是我的女儿，

我会把那个人先阉后杀。

有个女儿，

是个多么没有安全感的事啊！

我想我不会让她接触，

任何可能会伤害她的男人。

然后一定要教她，

应该如何保护自己。

然后要让她知道，

不管发生什么事，一定要跟我说，

妈妈一定会为她出头。

再次我深深感觉到，

我妈妈的伟大。

神离

骤然一阵感动，

霎那以为是错觉。

然而却开始怀疑，

这个举动的目的，

可悲的我，可悲的你。

多年前的记忆，

心里已忘记，

嘴里却一再提起。

仿佛那是另一个人，

仿佛他已离开世尘。

我仍怀念那个人，

如此曾经真心真意、不离不弃。

然而消失的，不会再回来；

发生的，已经种下阴霾。

我仍看见你，

但是你却陌生得令人心悸。

Health Log [ 7 July 09]

Two weeks into the second semester.

Felt a little difficult on the very first day,
calmed myself down & all went well after.

It comes throughout,
on and off.

Somehow,
I was better at managing it.

Cindy told me of her own experience.

She too went through many tests and checkups,
only to find nothing wrong with herself.

Similar symptoms,
difficulty in breathing, exhausting heartbeat.

In the end,
she attributed these to stress.

Stress,
the very question all doctors asked.

No, I do not feel more stress,
as compared to what I have been taking.

It has been like that all these while,
perhaps a little more here and there,
but not extremely significant.

But then again who knows.

I look forward to the results on 16th.

If I am all well, I am very grateful;
if not, I will do what I can to get things right.

最佳时机

Z 教我如何把握时机，

得到最多的休息。

由于有四个月产假，

而产假也把假期包括在内，

对于我们而言，

宝宝最好生于1、2月或6、7月。

怀胎九月。

也就是说，

应该在4、5月或10、11月，

多多加油，不断努力。

呵呵。

加油咯，各位姐妹们。