Friday, October 30, 2009

Dear God

Please be with me,
as I journey my way for a healthier body.

Please be with me,
when the mind cannot be
as strong and positive as it should be.

Please be with me,
when obstacles are met,
and events do not turned out as planned.

Please be with me,
when tempers flew faster than thoughts.

Please be with me,
when nonsensical provocations persist,
polluting the air with dense negativity.

Dear God,
please be with me,
as I try to find my way through
this life, this body, this mind.



Thursday, October 29, 2009

On a side note

It felt terrible
to have BITCHES at your workplace,
taking every opportunity,
to take you down.

Stop scratching my ass, will you?

I seriously do not have time to
Kick back Yours.


Health Log [29 Oct 09]

Went TTSH to see the ENT specialist today.

It was a long visit with long waiting time,
but worth the wait nevertheless.

Told the doctor (a rather good-looking doctor ;p)
all that has happened over the past few months,
and then he asked a few questions about my nasal condition.

He told me that I do not have sinus,
as I previously believed myself to have.
Instead, i have Rhinitis.
(If I remember clearly,
学姐 you have rhinitis too right?)

Following this Q&A was an endoscope,
through my nose to examine my throat.

I was quite taken aback,
as I do not expect it to be done today.

Doc told me after that my throat is fine,
so it should not be a condition of Tonsillitis.

However, the sides of my throat
are reddish and sightly swollen.

And guess what?

I am back to Omeprazole,
because I revealed to him that I reduced
the dosage the previous NHC Doc prescibed.

Sigh, that's the retribution of not trusting your Doc.

Doc says that I should take as per prescribed,
because only then will they know if my condition
is really caused by acid reflux.

And I was given a type of nasal spray,
everything for 2 months before I see him again.

I asked if I need to do a scope for my gastro,
he told me that he can refer me if I want,
but even if I go to gastro and confirmed my condition,
the medicine that they will give me,
will still be Omeprazole.

If Omeprazole don't work,
then will they do a biopsy
to confirm the existence of bacteria,
and I will most probably be given
a kind of triple-action antibiotics.

Since there is no difference,
I decided to trust him,
take the medicine for 2 months
and see how it goes.

Although I was not given any special treatment,
other than what I have had, somehow I felt better.

I felt understood,
and felt that I better understand what's going on.
I felt I understand the rationale behind my treatment,
and what is going to happen if the treatment fails.

It feels good to be able to Understand my body.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Bliss

If you are wondering why,
I now am able to go online more easily at night,
that's because of CS's netbook.

Because of him,
I can browse the internet, surf facebook and blog,
all done in the comfort of my air-conditioned cosy bedroom.





I am blessed. :)


Though I greedily wish for more blessings,
at the end of November.




Please grant us a house we can call home.





Blunder

It was Friday,
and most of us will be released around noon.

Was discussing with 皇兄 via sms,
our plans for the next half of the day,
missing CS badly at the same time.

Hence in the midst of confusion,
the below words were sent to 皇兄.


Honey busy?


And I did not realised it,
until 皇兄replied,


Erm... Quite free.. Erm......


Monday, October 26, 2009

Everything in its time

All these negativity,
from all means coming through my path,
are all very random.

Yet today I understand once again,
the greater the repulsion,
the tougher I become.

I will let things be,
for it is clear to me,

all will give an answer,
everything in its time.


Thursday, October 22, 2009

Lullaby

妹妹 sings:

Rock-a-bye baby on the treetop,
When the wind blows, the cradle will rock.
When the bough breaks, the cradle will fall.
And down will come baby, cradle and all.

Then she tells me,
never to sing this lullaby to my children next time.

Whoever wrote this song,
is so very perverted.

Hm... I've never seen this song in that light.


Monday, October 19, 2009

I forgive

我在意吗?

老实说,
那怨妇俩儿一唱一合的时候,
真的很惹人厌。

但是今天听到,
她那样说我们的时候,
只觉得她很可笑。

慧啊慧,
如果你在读的话,
我想我们要在环境没有明朗化之前,
不断提醒对方:

It's Mind over Matter.

We do not mind,
because they do not matter.

不论她们多卑鄙,多无耻,多幼稚,多无知,
也只不过是同事而已,
无需我们那么介意,那么痛苦。

我们可以做的,应该做的,
可以以和为贵的,应该忍下来,
都已经尽了人事。

就像我那天在她们面前说的,
对于一切在工作上令人厌烦的,
I forgive。

I forgive,
because I can.

You cannot forgive,
because you are meant to be forgiven.

人生尽管有如此恶人,
仍是无限美好。:)

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Waste of time

The warrior of light chooses his enemies.

He knows what he is capable of;

he does not have to go about the world
boasting his qualities and virtues.

Nevertheless, there is always someone
who wants to prove himself better than he is.

For the warrior, there is no "better" or worse:
everyone has the necessary gifts for his particular path.

But certain people persist.

They provoke and offend and
do everything they can to irritate him.

At that point, his heart says:
" Do not respond to these insults, they will not increase your abilities.
You will tire yourself needlessly."

A warrior of light does not waste his time
listening to provocations.

He has a destiny to fulfil.


~~ Paulo Coelho ~~



Thursday, October 15, 2009

In search of the path

An abbot asked his disciple,
“How does a man choose his Path?”

“Through sacrifice.
A path that demands sacrifice is a true path.”

The abbot bumped into a bookcase.
A very rare vase fell down
and the young man threw himself to the floor to pick it up.
He fell the wrong way and broke his arm.
But he was able to save the vase.

“Which sacrifice is greater,
to see the vase breaking down or breaking an arm to save it?”

“I don’t know.”

“So then,
do not try to guide your choice through sacrifice.

The path is chosen
by our capacity of compromising
with each step we make while we walk.”


~~ Paulo Coelho ~~



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I always consider thoroughly through my options,
as I make plans for the future.

Yet the future is filled with the unknown.

Thus I remind myself,
that I must remain unfazed and calm in its face.

As changes approach,
I must adapt and rethink my possible paths.

There is no need to despair,
for when one door closes, another opens.




Sunday, October 11, 2009

The risky climb

In the middle of a storm,
a pilgrim reaches an inn and the owner asks where he is going.

“I’m going to the mountains,” he answers.

“Forget it,” says the innkeeper,
“it’s a risky climb, and the weather is awful.”

“But I’m going up,” answers the pilgrim,

“if my heart gets there first,
it will be easy to follow it with my body.”


~~ Paulo Coelho ~~


Wednesday, October 07, 2009

关系

人与人之间的关系,
真的很微妙。

可以因为一个眼神陷入僵局,
也能够因为彼此放轻态度,
而化解冰山。

有时候,
越是不用言语所表达的,
越是让对方感觉强烈。

然后因为没有澄清,
这种莫名的情绪就这样,
延续,伸长,蔓延,
侵蚀了仅存的关系、友谊。

仍然莫名其妙,依然感到惋惜,
然而也只能这样。

因为那堵墙,
那堵骤然变得巨大无比的隐形墙,
已经将近在咫尺的我们远远隔离。

人与人之间的关系,
我想我还要学习,
在不一味依附的自我下,
给其他人更多的包容。



Sunday, October 04, 2009

醒来时,
感觉莫名的疲惫和一股悲伤。

有些人和事,
在不知不觉中产生了变化;
表面的若无其事,
更加深了心里的无力感。

没有明说的,
并不代表不存在;
然而存在的,是否都是真实?

我们都因为太急于保护自己,
所以仓促地决定自己的反应,
然而反应的,是否都是正确的?

我其实没有力量去改变什么,
因为每个人都有自己的一套想法,
而许多想法早在不知不觉中根深蒂固。

对于那些重要的,
我在尽力。

如果还是不可以,
我只能说对不起。

对于那些不能改变的,
我必须释然。

希望更豁达的面对,
能让日子更简单。



Thursday, October 01, 2009

Dear God

Please grant me

SERENITY

to accept the things I cannot change;

COURAGE

to change the things I can;

WISDOM

to know the difference.