Thursday, August 16, 2007

祈祷

闭上眼默念

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他不见

你出现



7 comments:

Anonymous said...

会出现的...

Anonymous said...

会不见的...

金田一 said...

我来了

蓝月 said...

呵呵...

Anonymous said...

Just like you, I have been trying very hard to forget someone. It has been a year and yet I am still trying...and will continue to try. I do not know what you have been through but reading your blog makes me realise that we are similar in many ways... We are both stubborn people. Ha. That's what my friends always say about me. They say I deserve someone better. But I am still trying extremely hard to forget about him and I questioned God why me. and I feel so painful sometimes.

Let's continue to try and encourage each other ok? People around us may not understand...but we understood one another... :)

Yes, he will disappear, and someone else will appear in our lives.

Jas

蓝月 said...

Dear Jas,

Thank you for leaving a message...

I went through a lot for the past close to 2 years. It showed me something abuot me. I never knew I can be so vulnerable. I learnt what it was like to fear, and tremble in fear. (No, it's not abuse.)

It's the fear of being abandon, just like that, without any signs. It's the fear of being left alone.

My story is an unspeakable one. And I wanted it to vanish with the wind... like I hope he will also vanish from the surface of this earth.

But Singapore is very small, I believe you've probably found out as well... I want to be strong, so that when i see him again, i know he meant nothing at all.

Jas, i may not know your story, but if someone is meant to leave you, probably you're meant for someone else.

I believe I deserve better. You must believe so too.

And if that person ever appear in your life, do let me know.

Take good care.

Anonymous said...

Hi

Thanks for your message. Yes, we both deserve better ones in our lives... but a lot of times, we do not have freedom of choice to the people we meet. But, we have the power to forgive people who hurt us.

I do not know what is your story and your fear. But you must believe in yourself...you have lots of good friend around you who are always there to encourage and support you... (I can see that from the messages posted by your friends in your blog)...You are so blessed, so you must love yourself ok? It's ok to fall down sometimes, but we must stand up and walk with confidence again. I am speaking from experience as I have always had lots of fear since young. My story is also an speakable one, but if I can slowly step out of it, I believe you can do it too.

Share my story with you: I was sexually abused by a relative when I was young..and from then I lacked security and felt worthless. I always think that people have ulterior motives for getting close to me. This incident has had a great impact in my life and I have difficulty trusting ppl around me. If a very close relative can do something so inhuman to a young me that time, what will the others do to me?

My dad's business failed and went bankrupt years back and my parents subsequently got a divorce. This was another great blow to me. I have to finance my own studies and support my family at the same time. I felt like dying that time. I felt abondoned by my father who left us and was so helpfuless...It was so tough for me. I am fearful that ppl will find out about my past, my story. There are so many accumulated hurts in me. But now, I have slowly forgave all these people who have hurt me. The hurts will come back now and then but I know how to manage them better now with the help from my very close friends.

There are other girls who are worst off than me. So, if you feel very down and depressed, think about me and the other girls. If I can step out of my past, you can too. Now, I am sorting out a past relationship and trying hard to forget about him. It is another chapter in my life. It will take time, but I will do it slowly. After all, I have taken so many years to forgive all the people who have hurt me in the past...so I believe, he will disappear soon too. :) take courage sister, let's overcome this together. It's God's purpose that i happened to see your blog. Perhaps God wants us to encourage one another.

Do keep in contact. You can email/ msn me at starry_comet21@hotmail.com

Jas