风凉话

凉了心、冷了情

原理

我承认，

在疲惫不堪、精神透支的时候，

总无法很好地控制自己的情绪。

原本能够深呼吸，

然后将坏情绪吐出去的能力，

忽然降到最低。

我不喜欢这样的自己。

我越渐清楚要往哪里去。

察觉

忽然

一切变得很清晰

我说过不要这样

我不会让它继续这样

It should be better than That.

exhausted

work has been crazy.

getting crazier next week.

may the strength be with me.

Nuisance

and frankly,

i dont blame her for the sleepless night she caused,

or that wound she left on my left thumb.

it's an awakening call.

i need my space,

a place of my own.

i'm not a penniless whiny 16,

i'm going to 30 for heaven's sake.

if i have to cat-fight like some silly juvenile,

just to have a space of my own.

i think that is plain pathetic.

2 years.

2 years to have a home i call my own.

ps: on another note, i will not be taken for granted.

insanity

yet another colleague quited,

3rd in this year.

she came in the same year as me,

another half a year bond to go.

i asked why not wait for it to end,

instead of compensating the sum.

"i will go crazy if i stay any longer."

she said.

i know exactly what she meant.

for the past few weeks,

especially monday where i have morning duty,

and am required to wake up in the wee hour of 5am.

i dreamt of myself late for work,

and woke up in terror,

in the middle of the night.

work gets me down sometimes,

and this is one of the very bad times.

i must stay cool.

or

i will go crazy,

if it goes any longer.

OM...

To self

I need to:


1. Take Chicken Pox Vaccinne (because it's in the air...)

2. Register French Course (Oct - Dec)

3. Book another yoga session (because I'm loving it!)

4. Buy yoga top and pants (and I think I look good in them ^o^)

5. Apply ZEN leave on my birthday (hopefully no need work at all)

6. Apply travel leave (if both Cameron & Bangkok can be firmed up soon)

便条

上午班的二年级 和 下午班的一年级，

共用同一间教室。

小不点儿常常粗心大意，

没收好自己的东西。

今早同事在教室桌上，

找到一份没收好的小报纸。

上面用铅笔，

歪歪斜斜地写着：

Naughty P1,

keep your things properly，

or I will throw them away.

Love, P2

Om...

Went for HOT YOGA yesterday.

Other than sweating like I've never had

for a real long time,

there is a strong sense of

Individuality.

A sense of being.

Om...

Satisfied

I swam yesterday,

after such a long time.

It made me happy.

^_^

无奈

昨晚

严重严重

严重严重严重

失眠

:(

因一杯 teh-si 兴奋过度，

心跳之快非笔墨能形容。

到现在仍处于，

无比疲惫的兴奋状态。

):

投机未来

我近视。

所以不喜欢一直注视，

遥远的五十五会怎么过。

尽管明白时间过得很快，

却更知道环境改变更快。

几分钟前的温柔，

眨眼变得丑陋。

28年自以为是的美满，

瞬间成为被视如鼻屎的负担。

我近视。

但有个人让我仍期待，

朦胧不清的未来。

尽管如此，

我还是比较喜欢相信，

能碰触到的 现在。

献给昨晚空手而归的老友

Before it all ends

I dreamt

of being stuck in WWII.

Don't particularly remember anything,

other than many people were killed,

and the word, Germany.

Was perspiring in fear when I woke up.

Anyway, this is not important.

Probably the result of,

not sleeping well for the past few days.

I want to accomplish more for the next few days,

before this short holidays end.

I want to work hard,

but play harder.

To pamper myself.

Because I deserve so much more.