Saturday, June 27, 2009

I love crabbies

For a fact,
I never like to eat crabs.

But the sweet cold crabs
left me wanting more.

I love the way they shell the crabs,
revealing the seductive whitish meat.

I love the pincers' meat.

I adore the nice chef
who gave me plenty of pincers' meat. :D

Health Log [26 June 09]

Went alone to National Heart Center
as stated in appointment
for Blood Test and ECG Stress Test.

Was a little stressed about the Stress Test,
as I have no idea what to expect.

I also feared that in the midst of the Stress Test,
the symptoms come again.

According to past experiences,
it would leave me feeling weak,
and air would not be able to come in freely.

I hope that will not happen,
as I am supposed to meet family for dinner,
in celebration of Mother's birthday.

The nurses called me in
and started to stick a lot of wires all over my chest.

With all these heavy wires stuck onto me,
I stood up, feeling like a robot.

Then I was brought to a treadmill,
that will increase its speed and gradient
every 5 minutes.

I ran for almost 20 minutes,
a very long 20 minutes.

When it stopped,
I stepped down feeling nauseous,
and felt like coughing.

The limps were cold and woobly.

I realised I haven't really run that much,
since my JC days for 2.4 KM physical fitness test.

After resting for 10 more minutes,
they took off everything from my body,
leaving red patches all over.

After resting for half an hour,
I proceed to the Blood Test.

I dread Blood Test,
for they always are unable to find my veins,
resulting in multiple needle holes
from trying to draw enough blood.

This kind man took 5 minutes
patting on my right arm, making the veins show.

He then took what seemed like a very long time,
to draw 2 small tubes of blood.

When he was done,
my arm felt sore.

I have this weird feeling that
he was examining my blood in a funny manner,
as if my blood does not seemed normal.

But I did not ask,
as he told me the doctor will inform me the results,
when I go back for appointment on the 16th July.

I made payment,
and left the hospital feeling weary.

And tomorrow,
I am taking my 2nd dose of Gardasil.

Human,
so fragile,
yet so determine.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Our Mommy


I love you Mommy

Your happiness
brought about our happiness

Happy Birthday ^x^



Wednesday, June 24, 2009

greys


rain rain go away

come again another day

little children wants to play

rain rain go away



Saturday, June 20, 2009

亲爱的您

您累了,我明白;
因为我也感觉疲惫。

这是一场莫名其妙,
没完没了的战役。

闹事者俘虏了您,
也困惑了自己。

我不知道他想怎样,
他也或许没有头绪。

但对您的微妙行为,
那是不可原谅的。

精神上的肆虐,
往往比肉体上的,
来得容易被忽视。

然而你要坚强。

因为如果能豁达一点看整件事,
没有什么大不了。

最坏的打算,
我们已经都谈论过了。

离开,或许会暂时陷入低潮;
但是那不会是最遭。

因为走出去,
另一片海阔天空。

还有那一群爱你的人,
会一直继续爱着你,

不论现在,或未来。

生命的可贵,
因为你在乎,
同时在乎着你的人。

两者不可缺一。

任何单方面的迁就,
或其中一方面的无理取闹,
最终只会带来烦躁。

不论发生什么事,
你要勇敢坚强。

然后睁开眼睛,
看看这世界所有
深爱着你的人。

HS曾经教过我,
坏的,就丢掉。

如果真的无法再修了,
如果你已仁至义尽了,
丢掉的那一天,
我们都会在那里,

支持你,保护你,
爱着你。

随意诗人

昨天感觉温暖。

小小的咖啡室,
令人陶醉的音乐。

然后到克拉玛头晚餐,
新加坡河畔观赏表演。

午夜十二点以前,
仍是感觉幸福温暖。




The June break

*updated as at 20 June*

Heart Specialist @ NHC (26 Jun)

Asian Lomography Faces Exhibition (11-23 Jun)

Shopping @ Haji lane

red dot museum / MAAD (1st weekend of July)

zoo (photography)

botanic garden (photography)

science centre - Da Vinci Exhibition

随意诗人 (中文)/ Casual Poet (Eng)

hdb hub

far east plaza

marine parade

KTV sessions

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Worry not

There have been many concerns,
and it warmed the heart.

I am alright,
and have been feeling rather well,
particularly this week.

Perhaps mentioning it in my blog & facebook,
is a means to release my random thoughts.

Having a health log,
also enables me to remember significant details,
that may serve useful when I see the doctor.

Like how our government handled H1N1,
I am concerned about my situation,
but does not want to cause panic.

Be it personally or externally.

I think it's good to know what is going on,
so that when the worse happens *touchwood*,
we are prepared to handle it.

So do not worry for me,
for I have my love and family.

*hugs* ^_^


Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Mona Vinci

So off we went,
as planned.

Travelling all the way to the extreme west.









Oh, I must explain this picture below,
a landscape drawing that turns into
a picture of a man.
(see reflection)





It was a tiring day,
yet I was happy and contented,

once again :)




ps: you know, da vinci was a real intelligent man, a very intriguing life...


Monday, June 15, 2009

Health Log [15 June 09]

Went for a 10am appointment
at National Heart Center.

Height and weight were taken,
I am 1kg underweight.

Was brought to a room for ECG to be taken.

ECG is normal,
except it confirmed my sinus problem.

Was brought into another room to see a doctor,
a very young doctor.

Not that it mattered,
but he seemed disconcerned.

Perhaps he is numb to patients like me already.

He says everything seems well so far,
and gave me another appointment next week,
for Blood Test and Heart Stress Test.

CS came down directly from his night shift,
and accompany throughout.

Told him this dilemma,
that I of course will hope for all tests
to turn out well.

But if all tests turn out well,
and yet the symptoms persist,
then i will be referred to another specialist.

And nothing wrong can be found with me,
yet I still feel discomfort,
what am I to do?

But I should stop thinking.

For the time that I feel well,
I want to live fulfillingly.

Another week to the end of holidays.

I will enjoy it.

我的孩子

也要这样。 :)










太可爱了!





Saturday, June 13, 2009

Tripping around


First we went






Let's just say that,
it is sufficient to just view the pictures online.

And off we go to Haji Lane,
where I do not feel quite comfortable in.

But there was this shop,






that really attracts me.






Then to Arab Street,
hm... I think it's acquired taste.

End of the day,
I leave Bugis Junction with a cute little dress,

All in all,
I was happy & contented. :)

So was he.




I insist.

Heh.




Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Ms M.


Life has its way of telling you

one by one

all doubts will be clarified

everything in its time



Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Health Log [9 June 09]

Spoke to my superior today,
regarding my condition.

She told me of her son
who had diarrhea for almost 3 months,
went to the polyclinic for referral,
and in end got an appointment for half a year later.

She was really angry,
and immediately brought her son to A&E,
and he was referred to a specialist the next day.

Upon hearing that,
I called up National Heart Centre (NHC).

This very nice lady told me,
the polyclinic has yet make an appointment for me.

She adviced me to go immediately to A&E,
if I still feel unwell,
and I will be able to get the specialist I required.

I decided that I will still wait for the polyclinic,
to give me an appointment date,
and then call up NHC for a nearer appointment.

Meanwhile I want to keep myself,
strong in the mind.

I do not want it to be
a hindrance to my daily life.

I will try to keep to the yoga,
and build up what I used to have,
carefully and mindfully.

But I feel strongly about not letting it,
be the focus of my life.

No, it is part of what I am going through,
but not the focus.

I should focus on things I want to do,
for this much wanted break;
focus on the people I wanted to love;
focus on the beauty of what's around me.

Dear God, please be with me,
as I work through this.

I know I will be fine.

Monday, June 08, 2009

Health Log [8 June 09]

CS came over very early in the morning,
to accompany me to the Polyclinic.

I have been feeling breathless on and off,
and it totally does not feel right,
I was never like that.

On top of it,
I became nauseous and dizzy,
after a session of yoga last Tuesday [2 June].

The nauseous feeling continued for the entire week,
and resolved into plenty of gases coming out of my body,
after I drank some Yakult late in the week.

It brought back the difficulty in breathing again,
and it frightens me.

To top it off,
I am going to be home alone,
with younger sis till the 3rd week of June,
when everyone comes back from holidays.

I worry if anything occurs in the middle of the night,
I might frighten her, and not be able to take care of her.

I want to find out what is going on,
hence my best option is to go to the polyclinic,
and get a referral to the specialist.

I was initially thinking of Lung Specialist,
as S recommended me upon hearing it.

Turned out that the doctor at the polyclinic,
decided that I should go the Heart Specialist instead,
hence I was referred to the National Heart Centre (NHC).

I am to wait for NHC to call me for an appointment.

After finally getting to the referral after the entire morning,
CS brought me to watch Angels & demons.

It has been a long time since we watched any movie.

Half way through the show,
I suddenly felt my breathing going wrong again.

The heart was pounding faster,
as the ribs below the chest tried to expand,
at every attempt to breathe.

After a while I felt weak,
and the ribs beneath felt like,
they have just been through a tough fight.

It makes me more determined to find out,
what exactly am I experiencing.

If there is nothing wrong with my Heart,
then I will check out my Lungs.

If nothing wrong can be found in my Lungs,
then there had better be something to stop this,
reoccurring.

This morning CS bought me McDonalds Big Breakfast,
I felt happy and contented.

This is a feeling that I want to be,
for a long time in my life.

And to be able to feel that,
I need to be healthy again.

Again,
because I was once so,
not needing to worry about Breathing.

And I will be strong in the mind,
till the rest of the family is back,
my Dad, Mom & Brudder,
so that even if anything happens late at night,
I have someone to go to.

Dear God, please keep me healthy.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Dear God


Please be with me
as I try to regain my health

Please let me strong in the mind
and utmost importantly

in the body


Tuesday, June 02, 2009

In reality



all it takes is a Situation

to thrash every sweet-nothing