Worry not

There have been many concerns,

and it warmed the heart.

I am alright,

and have been feeling rather well,

particularly this week.

Perhaps mentioning it in my blog & facebook,

is a means to release my random thoughts.

Having a health log,

also enables me to remember significant details,

that may serve useful when I see the doctor.

Like how our government handled H1N1,

I am concerned about my situation,

but does not want to cause panic.

Be it personally or externally.

I think it's good to know what is going on,

so that when the worse happens *touchwood*,

we are prepared to handle it.

So do not worry for me,

for I have my love and family.

*hugs* ^_^

Mona Vinci

So off we went,

as planned.

Travelling all the way to the extreme west.

Oh, I must explain this picture below,

a landscape drawing that turns into

a picture of a man.

(see reflection)

It was a tiring day,

yet I was happy and contented,

once again :)

ps: you know, da vinci was a real intelligent man, a very intriguing life...

Health Log [15 June 09]

Went for a 10am appointment
at National Heart Center.

Height and weight were taken,
I am 1kg underweight.

Was brought to a room for ECG to be taken.

ECG is normal,
except it confirmed my sinus problem.

Was brought into another room to see a doctor,
a very young doctor.

Not that it mattered,
but he seemed disconcerned.

Perhaps he is numb to patients like me already.

He says everything seems well so far,
and gave me another appointment next week,
for Blood Test and Heart Stress Test.

CS came down directly from his night shift,
and accompany throughout.

Told him this dilemma,
that I of course will hope for all tests
to turn out well.

But if all tests turn out well,
and yet the symptoms persist,
then i will be referred to another specialist.

And nothing wrong can be found with me,
yet I still feel discomfort,
what am I to do?

But I should stop thinking.

For the time that I feel well,
I want to live fulfillingly.

Another week to the end of holidays.

I will enjoy it.

我的孩子

也要这样。 :)

太可爱了！

Tripping around

First we went

to the Lomography Exhibition.

Let's just say that,

it is sufficient to just view the pictures online.

And off we go to Haji Lane,

where I do not feel quite comfortable in.

But there was this shop,

that really attracts me.

Then to Arab Street,

hm... I think it's acquired taste.

End of the day,

I leave Bugis Junction with a cute little dress,

at Grandchild.

All in all,

I was happy & contented. :)

So was he.

I insist.

Heh.

Ms M.

Life has its way of telling you

one by one

all doubts will be clarified

everything in its time

Health Log [9 June 09]

Spoke to my superior today,
regarding my condition.

She told me of her son
who had diarrhea for almost 3 months,
went to the polyclinic for referral,
and in end got an appointment for half a year later.

She was really angry,
and immediately brought her son to A&E,
and he was referred to a specialist the next day.

Upon hearing that,
I called up National Heart Centre (NHC).

This very nice lady told me,
the polyclinic has yet make an appointment for me.

She adviced me to go immediately to A&E,
if I still feel unwell,
and I will be able to get the specialist I required.

I decided that I will still wait for the polyclinic,
to give me an appointment date,
and then call up NHC for a nearer appointment.

Meanwhile I want to keep myself,
strong in the mind.

I do not want it to be
a hindrance to my daily life.

I will try to keep to the yoga,
and build up what I used to have,
carefully and mindfully.

But I feel strongly about not letting it,
be the focus of my life.

No, it is part of what I am going through,
but not the focus.

I should focus on things I want to do,
for this much wanted break;
focus on the people I wanted to love;
focus on the beauty of what's around me.

Dear God, please be with me,
as I work through this.

I know I will be fine.

Health Log [8 June 09]

CS came over very early in the morning,
to accompany me to the Polyclinic.

I have been feeling breathless on and off,
and it totally does not feel right,
I was never like that.

On top of it,
I became nauseous and dizzy,
after a session of yoga last Tuesday [2 June].

The nauseous feeling continued for the entire week,
and resolved into plenty of gases coming out of my body,
after I drank some Yakult late in the week.

It brought back the difficulty in breathing again,
and it frightens me.

To top it off,
I am going to be home alone,
with younger sis till the 3rd week of June,
when everyone comes back from holidays.

I worry if anything occurs in the middle of the night,
I might frighten her, and not be able to take care of her.

I want to find out what is going on,
hence my best option is to go to the polyclinic,
and get a referral to the specialist.

I was initially thinking of Lung Specialist,
as S recommended me upon hearing it.

Turned out that the doctor at the polyclinic,
decided that I should go the Heart Specialist instead,
hence I was referred to the National Heart Centre (NHC).

I am to wait for NHC to call me for an appointment.

After finally getting to the referral after the entire morning,
CS brought me to watch Angels & demons.

It has been a long time since we watched any movie.

Half way through the show,
I suddenly felt my breathing going wrong again.

The heart was pounding faster,
as the ribs below the chest tried to expand,
at every attempt to breathe.

After a while I felt weak,
and the ribs beneath felt like,
they have just been through a tough fight.

It makes me more determined to find out,
what exactly am I experiencing.

If there is nothing wrong with my Heart,
then I will check out my Lungs.

If nothing wrong can be found in my Lungs,
then there had better be something to stop this,
reoccurring.

This morning CS bought me McDonalds Big Breakfast,
I felt happy and contented.

This is a feeling that I want to be,
for a long time in my life.

And to be able to feel that,
I need to be healthy again.

Again,
because I was once so,
not needing to worry about Breathing.

And I will be strong in the mind,
till the rest of the family is back,
my Dad, Mom & Brudder,
so that even if anything happens late at night,
I have someone to go to.

Dear God, please keep me healthy.

Dear God

Please be with me

as I try to regain my health

Please let me strong in the mind

and utmost importantly

in the body

In reality

all it takes is a Situation

to thrash every sweet-nothing