Parv told me
she read this again
the night before her BIG NCS observation,
instead of catching up on the much needed sleep.
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He came up.
Seconds later, he went down.
He is avoiding, one can feel.
Perhaps with a tint of unexplainable fear.
For what, one does not know.
Eyes no longer can cry, though heart feels the pain again, this time with much disappointment and sadness.
Whether that is caused by his actions, or the incomprehensible fact that one has actually managed to send another running in an opposite direction by doing nothing, one does not know.
It is an inalienable truth that he still matters.
For one still has to try hard to keep head up, smiling big, working hard at everything that falls in and assuring friends whom already are bored by the never-ending story of the overwhelming emotions of a girl, whose heart never get to heal as fast as she wants it to.
Stay away, head says.
One has been staying away as far and as long as possible. For an emotional burden and a pain-in-the-ass, one does not want to be.
One is never that kind of person.
One thought he understands enough to know that.
One realised that is not true.
Four months and then a different man.
Sometimes, one wonders if this is the same for every person one is going to meet down the road.
But one is not like that.
So does that conclude, not everyone works that way?
One does not know.
One no longer has strength and faith to go through that again.
Head tells one to stop dwelling over his possible thoughts. Such a mind, one can never penetrate and understand.
Eyes closed, and heart followed, seeking solace in the name of something known as God.
May one find her peace of mind.
Jenna@Sihua
120306
2110hrs
Seconds later, he went down.
He is avoiding, one can feel.
Perhaps with a tint of unexplainable fear.
For what, one does not know.
Eyes no longer can cry, though heart feels the pain again, this time with much disappointment and sadness.
Whether that is caused by his actions, or the incomprehensible fact that one has actually managed to send another running in an opposite direction by doing nothing, one does not know.
It is an inalienable truth that he still matters.
For one still has to try hard to keep head up, smiling big, working hard at everything that falls in and assuring friends whom already are bored by the never-ending story of the overwhelming emotions of a girl, whose heart never get to heal as fast as she wants it to.
Stay away, head says.
One has been staying away as far and as long as possible. For an emotional burden and a pain-in-the-ass, one does not want to be.
One is never that kind of person.
One thought he understands enough to know that.
One realised that is not true.
Four months and then a different man.
Sometimes, one wonders if this is the same for every person one is going to meet down the road.
But one is not like that.
So does that conclude, not everyone works that way?
One does not know.
One no longer has strength and faith to go through that again.
Head tells one to stop dwelling over his possible thoughts. Such a mind, one can never penetrate and understand.
Eyes closed, and heart followed, seeking solace in the name of something known as God.
May one find her peace of mind.
Jenna@Sihua
120306
2110hrs
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I am touched :)
Next time,
I teach you Chinese
so that you can have more read alrighty?
In return,
Meat loaves & Hamster food ;)
1 comment:
hee hee hee... yes, teach me to read ur blog! take care love... enjoy the weekend *muahz*
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