Health Log [4-12 May 09]

I woke up this morning,
with a strong thought of having a log.

I want to keep track of what,
is happening to this body of mine.
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4th - 6th May 09 (Mon-Wed)

If I remember correctly,
I woke up suddenly at between 3-ish to 4-ish,
for 3 consequtive nights, with a very bad cold.

I would sneeze & sneeze,
till I go back to sleep only to wake up,
half hour later to the alarm ring.

7th May 09 (Thu)

I was really very tired,
after a full day of lessons,
and non-stop marking.

I reached home with a bad cold,
and an unbearable headache.

I felt That was my limit,
I needed some rest.

8th May 09 (Fri)

Went to see Dr Hui in the morning.

He gave me a bottle of cough syrup, Tussil 5 lozenges
and Dexchlorpheniramine Maleate.

All went well until around midnight,
I was in bed, and I couldn't breathe.

I tried the yoga breathing techniques,
to get air into the lungs.

The lungs felt like they can only be half-filled,
the limbs went numb, and the heart
was beating very fast.

I panic.

I went to brother who was awake,
he told me to calm down and try to sleep.

I tried, and eventually I fell asleep.

9th May 09 (Sat)

I woke up feeling better than last night.

I thought it was only a phase,
but it came again towards the afternoon.

I couldn't breathe properly,
and I felt weak.

I began to suspect that it could be the medication,
I never experience this before.

I couldn't go to Dr Hui,
as the clinic is closed on public holidays.

I laid on bed, not able to move.

2pm, I called Father,
hoping he could drive me to a nearby clinic.

He was too busy with appointments,
he asked me to wait.

5-ish, Mother came home,
immediately took me to the clinic in a cab.

Went to Healthway Medical,
Dr Liang attended to me.

He checked my breathing and heartbeat,
and tested the agility of my limbs.

He says my heart sounds fine,
so do my lungs.

But since I have flu,
it could be a possible lungs infection.

I was scheduled for an X-ray the next day,
and was given Zenmolin.

What exactly is Zenmolin?

I could not find any information online.

Anyway, I asked him if it could be due to
the Dexchlorpheniramine Maleate I took.

I found that taking it could cause adverse reactions,
like palpitations, hypotension, tightness of chest,
wheezing & dryness of mouth.

I experienced most of the symptoms.

He looked at me as if i was joking,
and said that the drug itself is for allergy,
so how can I be possibly allergic to a drug for allergy?

I was weak, I couldn't think,
and I just wanted to get some medicine,
and an X-ray to know what exactly happened.

In the evening, CS came down from work,
and bought me porridge.

I couldn't eat after a few scoops,
as the food seemed to obstruct the breathing.

17th May 09 (Sun)

I went for the X-ray early in the morning.

The clinic told me it will take 3 working days,
for them to call me up for another visit again.

I took Zenmolin for the 2nd day,
I felt better.

But breathing still did not feel
as easy as before.

I did not feel the strength I used to have,
and felt breathless even walking within the house.

CS's presence that day,
makes me think less about it.

I felt better,
and that night I am able to eat more.

18th May (Mon)

I was still weak,
but I wanted CS to take me out.

I needed to go out,
run some errands, watch some movies,
be a normal person without worrying about,
not being able to breathe.

I enjoyed it,
and I am grateful for the day out.

It made me cherish,
the importance of health.

12th May 09 (Tue)

I was back to work,
felt breathless after the first few hours.

I felt a cough coming,
and I tried hard to contain it.

I feel that if I let it be,
it will be non-stop.

The more I think about my condition,
the more determined I am,
to find out what happened.

I am frightened by the fact that,
I could just stop breathing like that.

There was so much I have not accomplished.

I have not married the person I love,
and bear his children.

I wanted to hold his hands,
and grow old together,
through thick and thin.

I have not bought our dream house,
and fulfilled my dream sex-in-the-city wardrobe.

I want to know what happened to my body,
so that I can make sure it does not happen again.

Even when it does,
at least I know what to do.

I'm going get my reports,
and asked the Healthway doctor,
whoever is on duty.

And I'm going to get a second opinion,
from Dr Hui.

I'm going to get to the bottom of this.