Sunday, May 13, 2007

Warm days & Sundays

For some unknown reason,
I am feeling really lethargic & drowsy today.

I hate Sundays.

Waiting for Monday,
is like waiting for something real bad to happen.

And you tell yourself,
hey, that's life.

Then Monday passes,
and Wednesday...

And before you realise,
thank god it's Friday

That's life.


蓝月 said...

i should pamper myself.

i should go for a nice night swim later in the week.

M said...

It will pass, the 2 things that bogged your mind.

Like what you've told me, just focus for the next 10 days, do what you need to do, and don't take things too hard on yourself.

Keep your heart light okay? Don't you let the blues stay.

大恒 said...

i thought suday was a happy day for all people because its holiday and no need to study or work, any way just wish you all the best! and thnax for you coments in my blog! niece to meet you!

Super Saiyan 3 said...

Oh no, i surf, i can't swim...... ;p

蓝月 said...

I had a very bad day. Whatever can go wrong, went wrong.

My mobile alarm hung on me today. I was planning to go to work earlier and do everything that has been screaming for me attention. In the end, I almost ended up late. And my shoe-strap has to come off while I was trying to catch a cab. Then I ran all the way back home barefooted to get another pair of shoes. Then I had to stumbled over I-don't-know-what.

It was horrible. Everything just caves in. I don't know what to do but to call my Father, for whatever reason I'm also not sure. I sounded muffled. I was tearing so much I don't know what I was telling him. But he came to pick me where I was anyway.

It's ridiculous. I've never felt like this before. I've never dreaded Mondays the way I feel nowadays.

There's this fear, this ridiculous fear of my P. I actually dreamt of her screaming at me.

It's stupid. I've never fear anyone in my entire working life.

I don't fear my ex-CEO. I don't fear my ex-manager and directors. I don't fear even I was told to do last minute TV and radio interviews, and even I was requested last minute to be the emcee of a really big press conference. Why should I fear my P? She is only, but a P.

I cannot comprehend this. But I am not going to let this fear take over.

This is ridiculous.

In my world, you don't fear your boss. Maybe guilty or apologetic when you do not fulfil your responsibility. But fear?

It's ridiculous.

I'll go crazy, if I allow this state of mind to continue.

M said...




Think about it, what is the worst that can happen? Nothing you cannot handle right?

Everything will be alright.

Old Beng said...


蓝月 said...

You're all right.

I'll try to stay sane.

Super Saiyan 3 said...

I guess i know what you mean, it's not like the guilt that a child did something wrong. She (in my case is a he) "casts" some emotion on you (in my case it's hatred) that is circling every now and then in your mind, then you try hardest not to experience it again. Now i barely remember what it felt like (i still remember his angry eyes though), but that is one year later.

Super Saiyan 3 said...

Hei, you couldn't be worse than me. I was losing hair, and couldn't sleep at night.

I guess it's our perception that good people shouldn't be treated in such a harsh way, especially when you did nothing wrong (we are not perfect, right?). That's what make us couldn't let go.

You know, for a while, i started to suspect that i am really a bad person, so i deserve to be treated badly. Hope you don't have the same doubt.

蓝月 said...

wow... you took the words right out of my mouth.

I don't like to feel fear for such things. It's like being terrorised. Frankly, I see no right in anyone terrorising someone else, especially in workplace.

If I've done something wrong, I accept the consequences. You can take my job away from me, but I should not allow you to take my sanity from me.

Work and personal life, it's something I try to be clear of, and guard zealously.

But sometimes, I get overwhelmed by my emotions.

蓝月 said...

You know, I am not a good person, and I try not to fall too much into that category.

That's right, "a good person" always get the worst of everything.

At best, I'll try to be a really sweet devil. ;)

金田一 said...


Yvonne said...

And before you know it... It's another week, another month... another year...

蓝月 said...

that's why... carpe diem.

everything can happen within a year. yet at the same time, nothing can happen at all as well.

i always remind myself to make things happen.

like you.

蓝月 said...



Yvonne said...

Make things happen... I don't even know why I am doing what I am doing anymore. I don't even know why am I living anymore.

蓝月 said...

don't say that.

you left because you wanted to see what's outside the small dot, isnt it?

you did, and probably longer than you thought you will. if that's how you feel now, then probably it's time for another decision.

singapore is always here for you dearie.

Super Saiyan 3 said...

I finally got it right! Hehe!

Today i saw "him" again, my only enemy on Earth. He pretend he didn't see me, i still feel the "sudden cold", but guess what, i didn't feel the horrow no more. Hope one day you will feel the same. Cheers!

I found Jacky Chan and Andy Lau's blog, can't help reading it....

蓝月 said...

kekeke... you sure you're 31? I suspect you forge your age.

i don't anymore. i tried to see her as another fellow human being.

but having said that, i still respect her for her capability, despite the tremendous stress level she indirectly imposed on me.

Crayn Tay said...


Super Saiyan 3 said...

I got a young heart, you can be sure of that, hehe!

My "enemy" is like an idol to me, for quite a while, but getting too close also make me realise he is also a normal person, extremely capable but super "small gas".