祈福

2008 充满着起落。

一生所坚信的，

被背叛、打破。

三年前不再相信的，

被爱捡起、重获。

我越来越相信生命的无常，

所以越来越珍惜拥有的现在。

因为珍惜，

所以不会轻易放弃。

昨天和 Z 的对话让我深思。

我们总是埋怨过程的艰难、他人的不足，

却忘了最终的目的地。

2009 我要用心，

好好照顾家人、爱人、自己。

I want to be stronger,

physically, mentally & emotionally,

so that I can to bear their vulnerable upon my small shoulders.

I want to be kinder & more considerate,

to those around me.

I want to laugh more & cry less.

2009年，

我仍然要过得充实、快乐。

生命只有一次，28岁只有一年，

我不想懒惰、麻木、白活。

但愿这一年，

平安、幸福、美满。

Ramblings

One thing,

don't take things for granted.

Love, patience, efforts,

or anything that a close one takes pain to give,

but in your eyes it might not even be anything.

Sometimes it gives me heartache,

to see one being nonchalent about these.

And there is so much that I can't do about it,

that I can only pathetically express the pains here.

Alright, back to myself.

I seriously need to sleep earlier.

1 am is bad,

very very bad.

It's bad for my health, my eyes,

and my biological clock.

I'm starting to feel dry in the eyes easily,

and nightmares about being late for work,

came to play these couple of nights.

To wake up at 5.00am is horrible.

Doesn't help that I've been waking up,

at 11am these days.

I need to do better than this,

before the new year starts.

I need to stop worrying about others,

about whatever I cannot control,

and start afresh on myself.

M-Y-S-E-L-F.

That's probably the most powerful thing,

I have control over.

I have a great break.

I just need to get myself warmed up,

for a great year ahead.

满满

我是多么幸运，

我有你。

保佑我们

睡得很不好。

好不容易睡着时，

很可怕的一场梦又把我惊醒。

这才发现原来，

你在我心目中已被贬到，

一个很低的位置。

你永远不会知道，

你对我所造成的伤害和困扰。

即使一切真的平息了，

我或许也无法再像以往那么看你。

梦里梦外，

若你的行为举止，

再度伤害我所爱的人，

我会不惜一切，

保护他们。

I dictate

Felt good to make decision
that makes you feel good afterwards.

It meant that
the right decision is being made.

I have decided,
after the long walk home
yesterday.

It was all too idealistic,
when I first think about it.

In reality when all sets in,
my enthusiasm will only be crushed
by the weariness having to wake up,
in the wee hours of 5.15am.

Crazy days are happening very soon,
in less than 3 weeks.

I am not scared,
I just want to be prepared.

Not being committed to THAT,
meant 2 things.

I can spend more on
other neccessity & luxuries.

I need to commit to
my personal workout routine.

Whatever it is,
I will do it.

For myself,
for my health.

My take

很多事，

我喜欢弄清楚了，

才去决定是否要进行。

请不要尝试蒙骗我，

画了幅美景，

试图隐藏其中的黑暗。

我必须明确知道自己的位置，

面对着的到底真正是怎么一回事。

Give me the worst scenario,

I will do my decision & blame on no one.

Do not Ever test my patience with any

Big Fat Lies.

乐活

从曼谷回来后，

不知为何什么事都提不起劲儿。

慵懒地过了一个周末，

躲在家里陪妈妈看《珠光宝气》，

和 CS 看母亲买的《海角七号》，

过后 CS 带我出去吃，

庆祝我们 认识 一周年。

慵懒的周末，

仍洋溢着从曼谷带回来，

散不去的幸福。

这样其实很好，

但我不喜欢太懒散。

今早起床，

忽然想起了工作。

快开工了，

我要整理好心情和身体状态，

好好欢庆圣诞，迎接新年。

明天去 Hot Hour，

让塞住毛孔的汗水全出来，

然后再去想，要不要再签多一年。

我要休息，

不忘运动，不忘工作，

更不忘生活。(:

意义

搭了鼠航中午的班机回来，

但其实不是很想回来。

幸福的时光，

总是眨眼就过去。

旅行的意义，

让我更认识你、认识自己。

如果我们真的可以，

这样一直下去，

我真心希望，

不会像他们那样。

泰国

母亲没事了，

今早还会起来看股票（Teletext）。

而我，

待会儿就飞曼谷了。

母亲没事，

我也会没事，平安返回国。

等我。:)

祈福

中午，

母亲经过医生检查后，

立即入院。

现在正在手术室动手术。

事情太突然，

让人措手不及。

但愿一切无恙，

只不过虚惊一场。

纪念。永远

从小您们就是，

我最大的幸福和快乐。

一直都觉得，

我拥有世界上，

最恩爱的父母，最和睦的家庭。

我希望这永远不会改变。

到我结婚那一天，

到您们抱孙子、抱曾孙那一天。

我爱您们。

祝愿您们，

爱情继续很多个28年。

结婚周年纪念快乐！

Finally

Alright, so as the story goes,

we tried to call a zillion times,

was put on hold for at least an hour every time,

and still NEVER managed to talk to any living soul

from "Tai Gor" Airways.

That got us so excited,

that we went all the way down,

to the infamous Tai Gor town,

to see if they are less Tai Gor,

when dealt with face-to-face.

Alright, I shall not be mean.

It's just that I actually expect more from an airline,

where SIA & Temasek Holdings have a foot in.

I apologise, I am wrong.

The next time I fly,

I will open eyes big big.

So after speaking to the person

we were dying to meet for the entire week,

and after weighing the pros and cons,

We have decided to go ahead with the flight.

Yes, to Bangkok next week.

I will prepare for the worst,

and I will come back alive. :D

Wait for me.

Heavy

I no longer,

look forward to anything anymore.

Just let me know the What,

I will accept it as it is.

It does not feel good.

But I know it will pass.

If that matters

Life is always full of "surprises".

Sometimes you don't even have time to ponder,

which is here to stay and,

which is there to go.

Subsequently,

I stop thinking & anticipating.

You probably do not realised,

sometimes perhaps insignificant to you,

could affect that much.

Thank you for everything.

It brought about a lot of thinking.

The tiger that manages like a mouse

I am writing this in a very peaceful state of mind,

and I find it absolutely ridiculous.

What with Tiger Airways ??

I've been trying to talk to someone,

for the past 1 hour

(5.30pm - 6.30pm, and I'm now still on the phone),

and all I hear is the repetition of songs.

I can't believe SIA,

has anything to do with this airline.

There is absolutely no other means of communication,

only phone, fax & snail-mail!?

Budget or not,

its customer service needs to improve big time.

The Bangkok hotel managed crisis,

much much better than you guys.