Sunday, November 26, 2006

一个人,不可能

刚看完 A Beautiful Mind

戏中描写了精神分裂的主人翁
如何在能控制和非受控制因素当中挣扎,
在爱人的陪伴和支持下,
走过一生。

很有感触。

你有过这样的感觉吗?

躯体,内心和外界
完全分划。

没有人知道,
所以你必须假装一切无恙。

然而事实是,
你的心理活动已不再受控制。

你可以外表在笑,
内心却因为某些东西,
痛得很。

但是你不可以告诉任何人。

所以你等,
等到没有人的时候,
等到能够躲回躯壳的时候,
眼泪才能出来。

这样,每一天。


你有过这样的感觉吗?


戏里的他一辈子,
如果没有爱人在身边,
不可能会有今天。

现实的我那段漫长日子,
如果没有你们在身边,
也不可能走到今天。

很多事,
我不再说,
因为已经过。

但我没有忘记,
我永远不会忘记。

那么痛苦黑暗的日子,
是你们一直在这里不离不弃,
是你们扶着我,带着我一步步走出来。

我不会忘记,
没有你们,
我可能将一直走不出去。

我不会忘记。


12 comments:

蓝月 said...

i still feel the pain.
it feels weird.

it felt as if someone wounded you so deeply,
although it happened so long ago,
and you almost forgot how it came about.

but you still feel the pain,
as that deep wound slowly closes.

the pain,
it reminds you of those who held you up,
when you thought you'd never be able to do it,
those who cheered you on,
those whom you never thought would come into your life.

one day i will only see that scar,
with no more pain.

and i will always remember,
the wind that held my wings in the air,
teaching me how to fly again.

卡門 said...

那些走過的
好的、壞的、晦暗的、喜悅的…
都不會輕易忘記
哀傷已經過去
而那些過去終究還是成就了今天的你

Unknown said...

after all, tomorrow is another day.


gone with the wind 里面的名句,美女姐姐,不要老是生活在过去哦,放轻松,未来很美好,还有像我这样很多英俊的男生的

Anonymous said...

達也真的很衰款...哈哈...不過卻很貼心...

阿moon...加油...走過都是痕跡~~:)

阿祥 said...

这是真人真事。对于男主角没有问鼎影帝感到不值!!

蓝月 said...

我很好,只是昨晚忽然有些感伤。
眼睛长在前面,我不会回头看。扶持过我的人,我也不会忘。

对,是真人真事,但好像电影并不照着书的原著。
你喜欢Russell Crowe?那一定要看Gladiator。

Super Saiyan 3 said...

This is against the rules but i am going to say it anyway.
The reason you are unable to forget such unpleasant memory is because it was imprinted in your brain while you're in an emotional state, let's say, in deep horrow. If you search your memory, you'll find almost everything you recall are those emotional moments, let's say you remember your birthday party because you were excited that day. So, if you shall choose to "scrumble" such "files" in your brain, you just follow a set of simple therapy to get rid of the fear or whatsoever that's bothering you.
Don't worry about the charges, the bill goes to Seraphim and Kindaichi.
:)

蓝月 said...

haha.

you,
surprise me.

let's not go into the WHY.

i have a small brain,
probably less than a GB,
which is why i have very selective memory.

An event,
many aspects,
yet only some are chosen to be stored.

such as this,
i forgot what made me sad and painful,
but i will always remember who helped me through,
online and offline.

the emotions and feelings
i kept,
so that when such things are about
to happen again in my life,

i will know what to do,
and how to go about doing it.

call it a human natural self-defense mechanism.

Super Saiyan 3 said...

Well, i was going to introduce you some sort of therapy but i see no need now. You are so wonderful!

Surprised you? You think professional gamer could only capable of producing rubbish? Or an adult doll player should be dumb and naive???
:(
just kidding lah!

Visit my blog @ thesaiyan.blogspot.com to see my dog dog.
Cheers!

蓝月 said...

i went!

so alike.

when and where did you get it??

Super Saiyan 3 said...

It was 8 years ago, when my mum brought my younger brother to New Zealand. We went to an amusement park called Rainbow's End. Dog Dog is the most beautiful prize on the shelf, so we spend half day collecting tickets to get him. Thanks to my mother's basketball skill, mostly.
I called "him" coz we gave dog dog a character, he likes prawn dumplings and sleep. :)
Almost every day someone will carry them down to the lounge to watch TV.....crazy leh.....of course the TV is off.....

蓝月 said...

you have an adorable family :)