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It has been a very unfortunate day.

However despite some moments,

in the verge of breaking down,

I kept composed.

Perhaps I should be grateful,

that I haven't had such a down day,

for quite some time.

I didn't ask why.

I have not been the kindest person,

recently.

In many instances,

it was deliberate.

They told me,

I have to be cruel to be kind.

I felt I don't really know,

what I was doing.

It felt heavy in the heart.

JQ lifted some of those heaviness,

the night we spoke.

Somehow,

he always manage to chase some blues away.

I slept well that night,

a rare occasional good night.

Sorry, I am rambling.

It has been a very bad day.

But it will pass.

The fact that it is now 8.20pm,

says that the day is ending very soon.

What goes down,

will come up.

No one will stay down for too long.

Neither will I.

No day can be as bad as today,

which means tomorrow will be a better day.

And then a very very long Friday.

But that would mean that weekend is coming.

Weekend.

A time when I can fall sick,

when it does not matter if I sleep 24 hours,

a time when I feel myself living a life.

I will be strong and fine.

I will wait for every weekend,

and tell myself in the face

that I deserve every minute of it.

I will tell myself that,

it is THIS draineous work I'm rambling about,

that provides me the money to spend on every weekend.

It is THIS job,

that allows me to take a cab home,

when all things go wrong and all I want to do,

is run home and cry under the blanket.

I have a job.

A job that allows me to complain about.

I should be grateful.

Sorry, I rambled too much.

I will try to enjoy the remaining of my night.

You have a good night too.

Wherever you are.

Take care.